Monday, April 30, 2012

ramblings of a cluttered mind...

Oh goodness, I don't even know where to start.  Our house is under contract.  Did I tell you that blogland??  I am so overwhelmed with life that I don't even know if I wrote  a post about that.  So, yes...we are under contract, have gotten through the inspection and the appraisal was last week.  May 14th seems to be the magic date, but we haven't heard anything official yet.  Our house...our home...is packed up.  Pretty much everything we own is boxed up sitting in our garage ready to be loaded into a big truck and driven away from our very first home.  I'm such a mixed bag of emotions.  So happy that my family will be together again, sad that we are leaving the place we became a family and the only home my kids have ever known, scared because there are still so many unknowns, angry because of the stupid housing market, excited because of this great new chapter in our lives and peace because somehow in the middle of all of the turmoil...it just feels right.  For the last 9 months while we have been living separately I feel like I've had to keep everything together, to put on a happy face, to suppress most everything I was actually feeling so that I could just make it through.  Now, with the light at the end of the tunnel peeking through, it is like I'm feeling 9 months worth of emotions all at the same time.  Today a feed from a blog that I read popped up in my inbox.  It was centered around this "Be still and know that I am God".  I need this right now.  Stillness.  I need to focus on the peace that I feel knowing in my heart, this is right where my family needs to be.  While I adore that little house in Streamwood, it is just a house, because home is wherever we are together.  There are lots of memories there, but there are lots more to be made...it is just the beginning.

2 comments:

Dawn said...

I love you, friend! In a day where stress mounts with home selling (and home buying) details, it's kind of nice to remember the stress free Flunk Days of years ago! Be Still....

Anonymous said...

Yay for moving forward! Hopefully the next few weeks will be smooth. Love you! -Amanda